Let Us Begin Again

I don't know how many times it is now that I have restarted this blog, I keep coming back and leaving, which I do apologise for!! Don't get me wrong, I do like blogging, I find it to be something quite... therapeutic to a degree, especially ever since I got a mechanical keyboard. Just the clackity clack of it makes typing that bit more fun, it's loud as hell though so if I'm ever in a voice call, I have to switch over to my non-mechanical one, just as not to come off as rude LOL! Anyhow, just to get the ball rolling, this blog will be as ever but a dumping ground for a multitude of things, be it BJD, character stories, art, travel adventures, random thought farts, you name it! I will most probably dump it here! I can't promise any sort of posting schedule, just as and when the need for typing comes to me.

Having had a look back at my past posts, I started this blog back in 2008, that was when I was still studying at Uni! I started blogging for art purposes, and since then it has evolved, well at least I hope that it has evolved. I have taken down all my past posts though mainly because I felt that a restart was in order, and I don't think any of it will be missed, I mean come on! The last post I made was in 2017!! We're now in 2020! And not even the start of it! WE'RE HALF WAY THROUGH THE YEAR ALREADY! And what a crazy year so far it has been, what with the pandemic and just well... that! Having said that, I do hope that everyone is staying safe, and taking all the precautions they can to minimise the spread.

I wasn't sure on how I should restart the blog, or what my first new post should be. So this is the brain fart you get that happens at 2AM in the morning, my sleep has been awful, and quite frankly has left me along with a lot of my creativity. I still try to draw and animate as much as I can, but it's becoming a struggle, which a lot of my friends keep reminding me, it's ok to struggle and not be drawing or be creative 24/7. They are truly right about that, EVEN THOUGH MY BRAIN WILL TELL ME OTHERWISE! Honestly I don't understand how a lot of people can keep pumping artwork out EVERYDAY! Although to be fair, I don't see what goes on behind closed doors, and it may just be artwork that they have had saved up, but! There are people out there who are creating everyday! And I well and truly envy them, please tell me to which of the gods you pray and make sacrificial rituals to, so that I may also bask in this pool of endless creativity. Jokes aside, I suppose the key to most of it is, don't give up. So that is the one main thing I will hold onto, is that I will do my best to never give up!

What a sappy start to the blog, is this what 2AM brain is like? Come on! Surely there are other things I can talk about. Ah I know! I started to also post videos up on YouTube, I have two separate channels, one for BJD and one for Art... although... both are looking a little bit neglected recently hahahahaha.... I just... ok so the Art one isn't too bad! I just gotta remember to actually record my work in progress, then just edit it, by speeding it up (Cause lol no one wants to watch me draw for 8hrs+) and adding some background music, then that is done! The BJD channel is a bit harder, cause I have to actually record myself, showcasing the BJD related items, and also actually talk about it... I struggle a lot with actually talking. For most people who have met me in person, they will know I'm not very talkative... and can be seen as the creepy person who just stares awkwardly... lol! I'm really not giving a great impression of myself to anyone who has read this far. I have in the past tried scripting ahead, I have also tried to just blabber on, and that has been hell!! Cause what does a person who doesn't talk very much blabber about?? I have tried to ignore the fact that there is a camera there, or tried to pretend that I'm talking to a friend... but cause of the lack of response or back and forth when it comes to an actual conversation, it's difficult! Oh oh! Talking about back and forth! I have also been doing podcasting with one of my friends too! No video just audio, and that has been a lot easier, because there is someone there to physically talk back at me! I'm really just not cut out for solo YouTubing hahah! This reminds me, I will put links to all of the YouTube channels, just in case anyone is interested in watching/listening.

Right! I think I'm going to end this here for today! Hopefully I will have more things to write about, but mmmm... I can't even promise that to myself! Let's look to the bright side of life! And well... yeah... you get it! SEE YA!